Posts tagged with "secrets"
Not secrets but dirty regrets…
Well his father is dead but still don’t know how to act around him. When I first saw him today we looked at each other in the eye. What did we exganged? Was it that the fact the he is gone doesn’t mean that all the bad memories are gone or… even though all the shit that happened I am still sorry for your lose. Or was it that we did something together, something that would put me to shame and and that no matter what we should keep out mouth shots? Yeah… I think that’s the one.
Now I am in the las chair on the last row and I can see everything… you reap what you sow? Too harsh? I do have to admit that I am still in shock. One day he was here and the next he is gone… am I acting like a hypocrite? I once said that I hated him and because of him I discover what true loath is but… I see him now in the casket and… well, it DOESN’T bring me a smile.
I just want to get out of here and sleep.
Funerals suck the energy out of me.
